I want to thank Jason, and everyone at the Monastery again for welcoming me with such openness. I’m still amazed that I was granted this opportunity to see shining examples of the teachings of A Course in Miracles, and for the first time in a long while, I do not feel alone.
Part of me wanted to stay longer, but beneath that desire was the thought that I would be doing so for the wrong reason; as a way to avoid my problems. The stronger feeling was, and is, that my travels will continue.
Before I left, Jason asked if I had had any insights acim. What I’m about to share was not yet clear at that time; only on the drive away did it coalesce.
That morning, several lines from a Vance Joy song kept running through my head, “I never should have told you, never should have let you see inside. Don’t want it troubling your mind, won’t you let it be?” This confused me as I could not think of anything that I had said that I felt regret for.
Eventually, the phrase, “don’t want it troubling your mind” stood out. This reminded me that the most prominent fear I had in coming to the Monastery was that I would somehow interfere with its residents’ peace of mind, simply by my presence alone. This belief that I could negatively affect other people’s state of mind has been with me for many years, and has colored many of my past experiences and relationships.
This fear left my awareness soon after I arrived. On the drive away it rose again, but I remembered David saying in one of his videos that minds cannot attack. I cried and laughed, and now feel as if the belief is being (has been?) released.
There are other things that happened that felt important, but I can’t think of them right now.
Prayer is exchanging (sharing) a Track of Love and Generation or judgments of the vanity predicated on that which you look for (agree with) in the mind. There is number other way. In the Program, your brain (content) is separate between Lord and the confidence; and you’re selecting constantly with a side as cause for effect.
Types (all points of this world) are miscreations sending the ego’s judgmental believed system. We’ve caused it to be up (miscreated that world) and may give it down any time by improving your brain (forgiveness). True prayer involves that modification of your brain as Lord has nothing related to forms.
What Prayer is Perhaps not:
As you are always determining, that which you ask for whenever you pray is what counts. Once you plead in prayer to own God fix a questionnaire problem with still another variety problem, you are wondering the confidence brain for help (not God). Those forms and needs are considered more crucial than God’s Enjoy that will remain concealed to their education you choose the illusion.
All external points (forms) are needs. Different brands are wants, dreams, position, issues, nausea, individual enjoy (special relationships), presents and targets in this world, etc. They are that which you pick as replacements for God’s Love and the pride may overlook the goal of prayer by using them to further the illusion. Therefore, prayer cannot be about “forms” or “needs” in virtually any way.