I wish to thank Jason, and everyone at the Monastery again for welcoming me with such openness. I’m still amazed that I was granted this chance to see shining samples of the teachings of A Course in Miracles, and for the first time in a lengthy while, I don’t feel alone.
Section of me wanted to remain longer, but beneath that desire was thinking that I will be this for the wrong reason; as a means in order to avoid my problems. The stronger feeling was, and is, that my travels will continue.
Before I left, Jason asked if I had had any insights. a course in miracles What I’m about to talk about was not yet clear during those times; only on the drive away achieved it coalesce.
That morning, several lines from the Vance Joy song kept running through my head, “I never should have told you, never should have let you see inside. Don’t are interested troubling your mind, won’t you allow it to be?” This confused me as I could not think of something that I had stated that I felt regret for.
Eventually, the phrase, “don’t are interested troubling your mind” stood out. This reminded me that the absolute most prominent fear I had in coming to the Monastery was that I would somehow interfere with its residents’reassurance, simply by my presence alone. This belief that I could negatively affect other people’s state of mind has been with me for several years, and has colored many of my past experiences and relationships.
This fear left my awareness right after I arrived. On the drive away it rose again, but I remembered David saying in one of his videos that minds cannot attack. I cried and laughed, and now feel like the belief is being (has been?) released.
You will find other things that happened that felt important, but I can’t think of them right now.