I want to thank Jason, and everyone at the Monastery again for welcoming me with such openness. I’m still amazed that I was granted this possibility to see shining examples of the teachings of a course in miracles acim, and fo initially in a lengthy while, I don’t feel alone.
Section of me wanted to keep longer, but beneath that desire was thinking that I will be doing this for the incorrect reason; as an easy way to prevent my problems. The stronger feeling was, and is, that my travels will continue.
Before I left, Jason asked if I’d had any insights. What I’m about to generally share wasn’t yet clear during those times; only on the drive away made it happen coalesce.
That morning, several lines from the Vance Joy song kept running through my head, “I never should have told you, never should have allow you to see inside. Don’t are interested troubling the mind, won’t you let it be?” This confused me as I really could not consider anything that I’d stated that I felt regret for.
Eventually, the phrase, “don’t are interested troubling your mind” stood out. This reminded me that the most prominent fear I’d in coming to the Monastery was that I’d somehow interfere using its residents’reassurance, by just my presence alone. This belief that I really could negatively affect other people’s state of mind has been with me for quite some time, and has colored many of my past experiences and relationships.
This fear left my awareness right after I arrived. On the drive away it rose again, but I remembered David saying in one of is own videos that minds cannot attack. I cried and laughed, and now feel as if the belief is being (has been?) released.
You can find other items that happened that felt important, but I can’t consider them right now.